Letter to myself 23/10/2015

Dear myself,

You looked kinda lost today, what was it that made you so urgh? Was it because you felt insufficient and small? Thinking to yourself about life and death? How people’s lives are cut short when they deserved to live longer and those that doesn’t seem to live forever?

Well let me stop you right there. Don’t fall into the trap of deciding who deserves to live and who deserves to die,  that is not your decision to make. I know Tupac has affected you deeply, only just discovering him truly for who he was, received once again by the media. You of all people should know that by now, about the media and all that fake things. If you don’t play by their rules, that’s it, your the target.

Even though his life was cut short at twenty five, having so much to offer, he still lives on, as long as people don’t forget the words he was trying to say, what his visions was, what his dreams was, as long as one person still remembers and fighting for this, he isn’t truly dead.  Life is like that, it doesn’t make sense at times, but it has always worked out the way it was intended. Eternity wins everytime, has more knowledge than you will ever comprehend. So don’t be a smartass and take on eternity.

Life, we only love once. If you want to spend your life, always in doubt of yourself, feeling sorry for yourself, blaming yourself and destroying yourself, that’s fine. Only problem is, your life is mine also, and frankly, I am sick of you complaining all the time.

I don’t want to be remembered as the guy that sits around and talk to himself and write letters to himself, that’s kinda weird to be remembered for that. I don’t want to be remembered as the guy who keeps asking himself what ifs and buts. I will tell you a secret which I stole from the universe when it was asleep.  Ready?

You only live once, go for broke. Go all out. Give it your all. You only live once, don’t spend it worrying about dying. It will happen no matter what. If you die, you die.  End of story, nothing you can do about it, so why worry about things which you can’t change. Live! Shake up the world. They have been asleep for far too long.

Tan Nguyen