More than my own enemy
Written by Tan Nguyen
The most difficult thing in life,
Is accept and to love oneself,
It’s the hardest thing to ever do,
Especially if the persons mind set,
Is similar to my own,
Believing oneself unworthy.
Throughout my entire life time,
I never deemed myself worthy,
To put myself before anyone else,
Rather seeing others happy,
Than being happy myself,
Always with the negative thoughts,
Especially when it’s about myself.
Automatically on auto destruction,
Especially when things are good,
When good fortune comes my way,
Feeling myself having no values,
Worthless and a waste of space,
Breathing in the air all around,
Felt I was stealing, taking things,
Which wasn’t mine to take,
Undeserving of even the basics.
No one else would hate me more,
There’s not a person that’s alive,
That would hate me for all eternity,
With the same passion of hate,
As I truly hate being in my own skin.
I am my worst ever enemy,
Destroying myself from within,
Tearing open my bleeding heart,
Ripping my soul into tiny threads,
Causing myself more and more harm,
Each and everyday of my life.
There’s not a person alive today,
That hates me more than myself,
Even my enemies shown me mercy,
They even shown me kindness,
I am my worst enemy,
Now I know this to be true.