Beautiful Surroundings

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Beautiful Surroundings

Written by Tan Nguyen
Sunday 27th of March 2016

I am blessed with the gifts of time,
Slowing down my life of haste,
Enabling calmness into my thoughts,
Appreciating the simple things,
Observations with an opened mind.

During my youthful years,
Recklessly as the storms of night,
Rushing from one place to the next,
Ignoring everything I passed by,
Missing out the finer things in life,
Unnoticed during my youthful years.

Nature which surrounds me daily,
I had never truly appreciated,
The beauty which is part of my life,
Unable to give it my attention,
Focusing instead on unimportant matters,
Neglecting to see the values,
In understanding nature’s laws.

Everything I believed was true,
Eventually turned out to be lies,
Realising through each disappointments,
That everything was only an illusion,
What I thought I knew,
Was nothing I thought at all.

Nothing made sensed anymore,
Simplest of things became difficult,
Unable to trust my own conclusions,
Doubting myself, untrusting myself,
Until I started re learning once more,
Challenging everything before me.

My inner confidence was shattered,
Slowly regaining myself over time,
My perception of the world,
Were only negative thoughts,
Seeing nothing but chaos everywhere,
My surroundings was dark and broken,
Eventually I came to realised,
It wasn’t my surroundings,
Which was dark and broken,
It was me that was damaged.

Spoken Words

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Spoken Words

Written by Tan Nguyen
Saturday 26th of March 2016

Spoken words are powerful,
Beyond any measures of weapons,
Damaging from the inside out,
Slowly deteriorating health and mind,
Breaking the spirit into pieces.

Thoughts replaying the words,
Running around and round,
Thinking about nothing else,
Only the words spokens by someone,
Whom meant everything in the world,
Those spoken words affecting,
Deeply within the heart.

Spoken words can be harmful,
Yet, it can be inspirational,
Whole nations are won through words,
Whole nations are destroyed,
A simple word of encouragement,
Resulting in dreams becoming true,
A simple word of discouragement,
Killing the dreams before it existed,
Whether we believe in ourselves or not,
Why should we speak the words,
Which destroys the dreams of others.

Words spoken through anger,
Even though it’s not truly what we feel,
Still causing damages,
Which can never be undone,
Spoken words changes the course,
The future is destined,
By the words we have spoken.

Searching Beyond The Horizons

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Searching Beyond The Horizons

Written by Tan Nguyen
Saturday 26th of March 2016

Seasons came and gone,
Day and night rotates steadily,
Measures of time flows constantly,
Rivers eventually joins the ocean,
Drifting across the lands,
Whispers are carried with the winds.

Light of day could be seen and felt,
Dark of night hidden from sights,
Wishes are made upon the stars,
Towards hopes of desires,
Changing the current circumstances,
Perhaps one of these days or nights,
My voice might reached the heavens.

As surely as the sun sets each day,
Beyond the horizons of the evening lights,
Searching wide and far,
Leaving nothing untouched,
Travelling throughout the continents,
Like an angry storm on a destructive mission,
Same intensity used in the search,
Searching for what? I do not know,
Perhaps one day I shall stumble,
Accidentally tripping onto,
The very thing I have been searching for.

Two Sides

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Two Sides

Written by Tan Nguyen
Saturday 26th of March 2016

I lived a life filled with hopelessness,
No one to blame but my own,
Choices and decisions I’ve made,
Were completely mine to make,
If anything, it’s my life to bear.

People assumed they know me,
Some think I belonged to them,
Everything was working out great,
Until I became self aware,
Starting down my own path,
Stopped listening and following,
From the adviced from those,
That claims to be my friends.

It felt really wonderful,
To feel wanted and loved,
To know that people actually cared,
Looking out for my best interest,
Keeping me from harms way,
Letting down my guard,
Lowering my defenses,
Words of comfort and reassurances,
Were nothing more than deceitful lies.

I should of known better,
My experiences taught me plenty,
Even after everything I’ve learnt,
Going against my better judgements,
There’s this part of me,
Which wanted so badly to believe,
Something I had always wanted,
For that small pat on my back,
Saying I did something good.

Despite everything I’ve been through,
I am still willing to gamble on others,
Even though the risk is high,
Ending in nothing but tears,
My belief and faith in others,
Has wavered many times before,
I am living in a world with 7 billion others,
For some reasons unclear to me,
The desire to keep risking myself,
To keep opening myself up,
Is confusing and heart breaking.

I am certain about the end results,
The day I stopped trusting others,
The day I stopped reaching out,
The day I stopped believing,
Will be the day my faith in humanity,
My fight for survival,
My very existence,
Has surrendered, given up in life.

Unknown Truths

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Unknown Truths

Written by Tan Nguyen
Saturday 26th of March 2016

We live within our illusions,
Surrounding ourselves completely,
Anything which makes us comfortable,
Regardless of the information,
Being true or false.

We live within our own creations,
Unprepared to acknowledge,
Facts which are truthful,
Believing our own lies and thoughts,
Refusing to break our own illusions,
Rather staying, living in comfort.

Whatever the reasons may be,
Unwillingness to shatter our safety zone,
Entering unnecessary hardships,
Closing ourselves from progress,
Thinking about ourselves,
Our human instincts in survival,
Kicks in overdrive, activated subconsciously,
Ignoring everyone else,
Forgetting one truth which can’t be denied,
We are all experiencing our greatest battles.

I Wonder If

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I Wonder If

Written by Tan Nguyen
Friday 25th of March 2016

Time is the only thing I have,
Amusing myself with questions,
Imagining what my life would be,
If I had chosen another path,
Making different decisions in life.

With the advantages of hindsight,
Having the pleasure of thinking back,
Making decisions seems so easy,
I know the past can’t be changed,
It’s still fun and interesting,
To reflect upon the possibilities.

I wondered if my life,
Would see a changed so drastic,
Changing only a little of my past,
Would my life be better or worst?
Perhaps it’s best not to ponder,
Being a stubborn fool, I must,
Because the more I reflect on myself,
The more I truly know my thoughts.

Even the slightest change,
Would result entirely different,
The people I have met,
Most likely I wouldn’t meet,
The experiences and lessons,
Wouldn’t be the same as now,
The most important question of all,
Would I be able to discover my passion?
My love for poetry and writing.

Everything which had happened,
Led me towards my discovery,
All the sadness and loneliness,
Even the joys and happiness,
Surely without those steps,
I would never even consider writing,
Most likely I wouldn’t write a thing,
Continuing on a path of ignorance,
Self destruction, without dreams,
Lost inside a world within myself.

Thankfully my path led me here,
Never did I imagined,
My life would turn out the way it has,
I would never had taken the time,
To search the person that I am,
Asking myself all these questions,
Reflecting was never on my mind,
The universe works in mysterious ways,
Beyond my comprehension, I am glad,
For it keeps things interesting,
Filled with surprises,
With many new lessons to learn.

Differences In Living

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Differences In Living

Written by Tan Nguyen
Thursday 24th of March 2016

Differences types of emotions,
Felt throughout my entire being,
Feelings at different levels,
When I no longer cared,
Shutting myself out from everyone,
When I begun to unlocked my doors,
Returning to the world,
I’ve abandoned for so long.

My eternal torment was too much,
Too much for me to handle,
Unable to cope with anymore pain,
Letting my feelings and emotions,
Disappearing through eternity,
Feeling absolutely nothing at all,
At the time, it was best for me.

Rejoining into the abandoned world,
Opening the doors with blinding lights,
Everything was new and strange,
Opening up my heart once again,
Realising I was unable to feel,
Slowly the feelings and emotions,
Finding out, it was easier to lose,
Than to regained those things,
Causing my balance to be totally off,
Turning me into an emotional wreck.

When I felt nothing at all,
I didn’t care about anything,
Death didn’t scare me,
In fact I wished for it,
Being alive wasn’t important,
I was already dead, just didn’t care,
Without my feelings and emotions,
Without the senses of being human,
I had a taste of what it’s like,
Living a life in the afterlife.

Surrounded By Death

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Surrounded By Death

Written by Tan Nguyen
Thursday 24th of March 2016

Death forced itself upon me,
Intimately we’ve came to be,
Shuddering at the thought,
While answers I’ve sought,
Asking myself why a million times,
Reasons unexplained like mimes.

Friends being taken one after the other,
Starting to really bother,
Uselessly watching as a spectator,
Not even being my own narrator,
Painful each and every time,
Making me sour like a lime.

Sometimes I wonder,
Sometimes I ponder,
What’s the reasons,
They weren’t committing treasons,
Life is filled with hardships,
They had done their internships,
Yet, they had to passed away,
Without any reasons to sway.

Frozen In Time

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Frozen In Time

Written by Tan Nguyen
Thursday 24th of March 2016

Unable to move forward,
Unable to move backward,
Time constantly flowing onward,
Leaving me frozen in time,
Watching as the world around me,
As the magic of time,
Changes everything I’ve ever known.

I remembered a point in time,
When my youngest sister,
Was so small, still a little baby,
Now she’s grown, taller than me,
Time left me behind,
Affecting everyone else in my life,
While forgetting I was still alive.

I remembered when my parents,
Were young and youthful looking,
Years has passed by,
Age can be seen clearly,
Upon their faces and eyes,
Shocked me by the changes,
Made as the time passed by,
I desperately want to be a part,
Of the world I once knew and loved.

Frozen in time, frozen in place,
Breaking the crystal which holds me,
Disallowing my movements forward,
Blocking my movements backward,
No matter how hard I tried,
No matter what I do,
I can’t break free, I can’t rejoin,
Watching uselessly as time passes by,
Ignoring my pleas, ignoring my screams,
I don’t know what else to do,
Only waiting till that time comes,
Waiting patiently all this time,
Yet, I am dying each passing moment.

Greatest Accomplishments

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Greatest Accomplishments

Written by Tan Nguyen
Wednesday 23rd of March 2016

Throughout the history of Humans,
There has been many great tales,
Defining great odds,
Overcoming great challenges,
Sticking on their paths,
Never straying from their visions.

There are times when doubts,
Affecting them the same way as us,
Only differences, is they pushed on,
They faced incredible challenges,
Seeing their choices till the end,
That’s why we read about them today.

Greatest accomplishments,
Are those we achieved personally,
Testing ourselves to the extremes,
These people lived their lives,
Unafraid of making their dreams,
Being a reality, becoming true,
Other people would discredit them,
Looking at them like they were crazy,
Despite their oppositions,
They pushed onwards,
Proving those that doubted them,
Those that said it couldn’t be possible,
Accomplishing these great things,
For themselves above all.

People of today has no visions,
Afraid of the opinions of others,
Scared to fight for their dreams,
Terrified to fail and be laughed at,
Sure, we all fail at some point,
Sure, people will point and laugh,
What matters most of all,
Is how we feel within ourselves,
To be proud of following our dreams,
Getting up again when we failed,
Never giving up,
Until our dreams are reached.