My Struggles Pt 2
In letter to self format
Written by Tan Nguyen
Wednesday 18th of May 2016
Before your life changed. You were a free spirit. Going wherever you wanted. Anytime you wanted. There were no boundaries, no limits beyond reached. Then one day your wings were clipped, grounding you, confining you to one place. Unable to do anything you wanted, like in the past. Feeling the restrictions suffocating you.
Do you remember, what it’s like to be free anymore? In a way, you’ve learnt many lessons the hard way. That is the only way you would of learnt. While young, you were wild, maybe too wild. It’s impossible to handle and experience everything at once. Over the years, you have surely seen enough and felt for many life time.
Who would ever expect you to write poetry. You, who falls asleep in English classes. You, who falls asleep after reading one page. Truth be told, it still a surprise and a shock. No one would of predicted this.
Truth be told, you had always been horrible at expressing your feelings. Always holding your emotions inside until you blew up. That was the only way you knew how to handle it. Until one day, writing came to you, when it was becoming harder to handle everything. You were beginning to destruct, things were too much to handle. Than writing came and found you, you began to write. That opened many doors, it was the beginning of knowing, discovering who you are.
Through writing, you’ve learnt many things. Learning how to express yourself, making others understand you. Letting people know who you are. But, most important of all, you’ve learnt to heal yourself, letting go off the negativity. Not holding inside those emotions and feelings until it destroyed you.
Hopefully one day, you are able to improve your writing and poetry. I know everyday you write and write. Trying to improve, becoming a better writer. In order to do that, you must go further inside, deeper, trusting yourself, your senses, your very being. To be in tuned with self completely.
It’s hard to put into words sometimes. Thats why you must improve. To describe the indescribable. To explain the unexplainable. I believe one day, you are able to do this. It will take alot of time and dedication. You have been through alot, it’s time to turn the negatives into positives.
Your inner voice