Haunted By Whispers

Haunted By Whispers

Late at night
My sanity being tested
Hearing faint voices
Whispers out of darkness
Reaches me from another place

At first I thought
The sounds from the wind
Howling against night
Looked outside my windows
Outside was quiet and still
Not a creature is heard nor seen

As night grows older
Silence feels thicker
Whispers, now louder
Gained intensity
Intensify to madness
Voices inside my head
Haunting constantly

Somewhere inside
Deep within my heart
Feelings of guilt remains
Of surviving while others perished
Easily could’ve been me
I’m still here while they’re not
Haunted by visions
Everytime I closed my eyes

Survivors guilt it’s called
Chilling it has a name
Feeling guilty for being alive
Feeling ashamed for breathing
For being alive is now a sin
When every waking moment
Is filled with guilty conscious
Enjoying a life; being consumed
Unable to let these feelings go

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Friday 1st Of July 2016

Journey Through Enchanted Forest

Journey Through Enchanted Forest

Where am I?
Suddenly surrounded
By strange creatures
Trees asking me questions
I’ve always known
One day I shall lose my mind

Creatures; delighted by my presence
In their eyes, I am odd looking
Standing in their world
I suppose it’s true
Irrelevant that they can speak
It’s normal afterall

Flowers that sings
Swaying back and forth
Gentle blown by the wind
Dancing while they sing
Intently listening to the words
Falling asleep under its spells
Beautiful yet treacherous

Logic thrown out the windows
Everything I thought I’d knew
No longer applied here
Starting back to basic
Relearning everything over again
Slowly my perceptions changes

What was once strange and weird
Becoming normal and real
Journey through enchanted forest
Without an opened mind
Surely I wouldn’t understand
Instead of adapting, appreciating
I’d be calling them unpleasant names

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Thursday 30th of June 2016

Simple Yet Complicated

Simple Yet Complicated

Often I’ve wondered
As  I gazed upon the sky
Amazed as always by night
Stars from so far away
Twinkling like diamonds
Filling the emptiness of space

Night’s sky
Wouldn’t be completed
Without the fullness of the moon
Moonlight radiating
Glowing majestically high above
Touching my soul
Like nothing else is able

Simple yet difficult
Gasping fully the divine
Comprehensions invalid
For my mind is limited
Perceptions inadequate
Mortal understanding has limitations
For now until the end of time
Gazing upon the nights sky
With wonderments and awe

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Thursday 30th of June 2016

Till My Last Breath

Till My Last Breath

Lights fading
Darkness surrounds
Slowly creeps over
Every part of my body
Claiming me for themselves

Resisting as always
Holding onto hope
Tightly as I can
As the lights dims
My grip tightens

Darkness shall attempt
Searching for weaknesses
Breaking through defenses
Waiting for such a chance
As light fades further
Hope diminishes more and more

Struggles
Finding reasons to go on
Becoming less and less
Still I try my best
Overcoming suffocation
By my own demised

Till my last dying breath
Giving everything I have
No matter if it’s a losing battle
I won’t know unless I try
Being stubborn has good points
Refusing to go silently into the night

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Wednesday 29th of June 2016

Same But Different

Same But Different

Remembering times of old
Only but a little boy
What a difference life makes
Upon my mind and soul
Changed so much, yet the same

Remembering I was taught
If I kissed a girl
They would give me cooties
I believed this to be true
Avoiding all the girls I’ve met
Only a boy that was scared of girls
Age and time; certainly changed my mind

If I swallowed watermelon seed
A watermelon will grow inside
Taking extra cautions
So a watermelon doesn’t grow
Such a trusting person I was

My mind, the way I think
Has changed dramatically
My thought process
Would like to believe more advanced
Before, life was fun and games
Still is to some extent
Adding responsibilities and duties
Amongst endless obligations

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Wednesday 29th of June 2016

Reality In Nightmares

Reality In Nightmares

Sometimes when I dreamed
Enjoying my happiness being true
Surrounded by beautiful places
Relaxing, absorbing peacefulness
Something always appears

Suddenly, out of nowhere
My dreams are gone
Replaced by my worst fears
Only a moment before
Living out my happiness
Now face to face
Everything I dreaded and feared

Standing there
Surrounded with those that mattered
Those I loved and cared
Seeing smiles on their faces
A gathering, everyone is happy
Enjoying themselves; perfect scene

I reached out
Tried to give them a hug
Telling how much I’d missed them
My hands goes right through
I can’t even touch
A single one of them
Seems like I no longer existed

After going through each person
I started to asked what’s wrong
At first I thought it’s my fault
That my voice was a whisper
I repeated the question loudly
No one was able to hear
No one knows I was there

No matter how many times
I’ve tried to yell
Screaming for them to hear me
No matter how many times
I’ve tried touching them
To give them a hug
Desperately trying to feel them
I couldn’t feel, they couldn’t hear
No matter if I tried
Another million times
In this reality, I never existed

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Tuesday 28th of June 2016

Beneath The Surface

Underneath The Surface

Appearance
What seems to be
May not be
Deceptions in
Every move we make

Automatically
Programmed to
Act without thoughts
Response for situations
Without even realising

Behind a smile
Protecting secrets
Unwilling to reveal
The true feelings inside
Being vulnerable again

Finally reaching a stage
When we stopped thinking
Living life on auto drive
Everything seems alright
Beneath there’s nothing left

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Tuesday 28th of June 2016

Conversations With Myself

Conversations With Myself

People stares at me
When I’m talking to myself
Probably unaccustomed
Seeing this happening regular
Maybe it’s not normal
I was never normal to begin with

Unsure of the first time
When I started talks
Probably started inside my head
A conversation no one hears
Now, everyone close by listens in
It’s normal for me
Not for everyone else it seems
Isn’t my fault
If others don’t understand
Never asked them to join in

Maybe I am insane
Perhaps even crazy
Even strange and weird
It’s a compliment if true
I never wanted to be normal
Having a normal life style
Being a robot like the rest
I am what I am
I can’t be more or less
Than what I am

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Monday 27th of June 2016

In Loving Memory

In Loving Memory

The world
Suddenly grieves
Sun hides behind the clouds
Tears falling from heaven
Lost; felt from all over

Irreplaceable
One of a kind
Special memories shared
Unforgettable; for a lifetime
I shall never forget
The time we’ve spent together
Forever staying with me

Now you’ve gone away
To a place I can’t follow
In my dreams I cried out
You were no longer there
To answer my calls
I wake up and it’s the same
You’re not here
Nowhere to be found

I remembered your warning
That you won’t always be here
Now that time has come
That you’re no longer with me
Though I was prepared
The impact has been hard to handle
I would give anything
Just to have one moment
To say a proper farewell

I remember you telling me
That you’re in so much pain
Suffering tremendously
Wishing your life to end
I wasn’t ready, probably never was
I was selfish, thinking about myself
When you needed me most

Instead of being there
I was afraid and ran away
Without saying farewell
Knowing you were leaving
I closed of emotions
So I won’t feel a thing
Remembering the past
All my feelings rushing back
Being that teenager again
Scolded furiously by you

Why did you have to go
To a place I can’t follow
Sometimes I hear your voice
Somewhere in the darkness
When I had lost my way
I thought I saw you
For the briefest moment
I’d probably did
Softly I said my farewells
And you slowly disappeared

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Monday 27th of June 2016

Appreciation Of Understanding

Appreciation Of Understanding

The older I’ve age
More I’m able to see
Observing silence
Watching my surroundings
Learning simplest of lessons

I’ve become witnessed
Tragedy and blessings
Life, like a roller coaster
Sometimes being so high
Feeling untouchable, indestructible
All of a sudden; crashing back down

I’ve always been a student
I’m always learning
Life has taught many things
Life ends, yet isn’t the end
Only a new beginning
Start of new life; while we advanced on

Copyright by Tan Nguyen
Monday 27th of June 2016