Research – Friendships

Research on friendships

I was curious in knowing, why was it that friends betray friends. Apart from a friend can be your worst enemy. Because they were trusted at one point, being the listening was at some point. Knowing your strength and weaknesses. I figured, there must be more to it than that. This is my conclusions

The line of friendships are crossed. Probably unaware when that line is crossed, no longer being friends. It is simple as that. Yet the explanation is complicated. I will try and explain what I mean.

In true facts, it’s not a friend that betrays. That person is no longer a friend. That person no longer has the same views and feelings as before. Their beliefs has changed, they have changed in some way.

Maybe they didn’t like the situation or results that happened. Maybe they grew up, fell in love. Everything changes eventually. Even feelings and love of a friend. Unknowing when the lines were crossed of friendship and enemy. That is the dangerous part and betrayals

Tan Nguyen

Crescent moon

Crescent moon, appearing tonight
High above, in heavens arms
Revealing only a fraction, of itself
Keeping hidden, scared of showing
The full potential of what could be
Shy, wavering confidence, full of doubts
Weakening state of hidden emotions
Displaying the form, in accordance within
Unaccepting self worth, deserving feelings
Unwavering self beliefs, not found
Having ability, shining brighter
Lighting up the night’s sky, making heaven glow
Surrounded by friends, are they even friends
Something is different, no one noticed
Displaying only crescent form, no one cared
Continuing on, with their nightly activities
Continuing on, with a life of their own
Stars all around, each and every night
Since the beginning of time, until eternity
Until eternity has ended, start of beginnings
Circle of life upon the universe
Where ever death is found
Another life shall begin

Tan Nguyen

Against the heart

Against the heart

Following hearts, following rules
Human laws, design by human thoughts
Reasons of injustice, based on opinions
Sometimes the heart and soul, are wise
Stunning, breathless and in shock
Injustice of the world around, prepared
With answers, when questioned 
Defying logic and law, sweet words of trickery
The heart never lies, not even one
The soul never fake, feelings or thoughts
Crime against the heart, painful
Ignoring advise from high above
Not believing in the information given
Crime against the soul, can’t  be done
Knowing each thought, would be tortourous
Untrue and untruth, may fool hearts and soul
Only for a moment, before frowns appears
For the heart knows, master of emotions
Designed for such a thing, of feelings 
Of love and care, in spreading it wide
Souls crying out, witnessing such suffering
Such torment, after so long before
Those exchanges, were hurtful
Trying to forget, difficult

Tan  Nguyen

Upon heavens door

Upon heavens door

Heavenly divine, protective of harm
Knocking upon heaven’s door, unanswered
Sitting on passing clouds, softer than imagined 
Gazing at the distance, amazed with the view
Stars seemingly larger, brighter in light
Planets are also seen, feeling so close
More beautiful than imagined, humbling feelings
Truly the works from the masters, the creators
Reaching out my hand towards the stars
Drawing the stars closer, startled effects
Imagination getting the better of me
Reached out my hand towards the stars
Same results occurred, stars are nearer
There’s no mistake about it, but how
Pondering, deep in thought of reasons
Unnoticed as heavens gate opening
Only until the doors were completely opened
The realisation of everything came to be
Feeling as if returning home, familiar feelings
Comfortable, surrounded as if peace
Were standing close by, as if on top
Walking towards heavens gates
Entering, suddenly making sense
Everything falling into place
It is home,
We are the creators
We are in charge of our surroundings
We are in control, of our situations
We are the ones, that changed events
We are the ones, whom are responsible 
For the surroundings and situations 
For changing things we not like
Being in control of what happens
In our every day life
To live a style, which has always
Been for us to decide
What we wanted in life
The abilty to change
Anything we wished

Tan Nguyen

Transforming within

Transforming within

Howling from wolves, towards the moon
Full moon comes out to play, magnificent
Majestically beautiful high in heaven
Glowing, displaying fully, proudly
Rustling sounds from leaves being blown
Around, as the strength of wind increases
Powerful emotions, surging to the fore
Powering, fueling flames into inferno
Gradually building, intensifying in heat
Transforming, in accordance of change
Finally accepting destinys call, finally
Drifting through life, as if a blur
Time disappearing, not knowing where
Experienced the lowest, a person feels
Glued to the ground, sinking into the core
As the inferno intensify in ferocity
Awakening from within, erupting to life
Strengthened all weaknesses, past and present
Strengthening and conditioning, stronger
Endurance, increased with determination
Motivation found all around, surrendering erased
No longer existing as a word, playing no part
In the world, in which I belong
Transformation, evolving, in being
Coming from nothing, manifesting into importance 
Living a dream, transforming into
Something to be proud about,
Who has learned
Who is been through heaps
Transforming, accepting
All of me

Tan Nguyen

Along the way, my life

Along the way, my life

If something happens tonight, preventing
Tomorrow from being seen with these eyes
Thirty three years, upon this world
Thirty three years, of experiencing
Thirty three years, of emotions
Thirty three years, of trials
Reminiscing of times passed
Happy and sad, moments in time
A journey of life, lived by me
From everything thats been thrown my way
Still standing strong, still fighting
Giving everything I have, and more
Experiences gave me knowledge
Feelings and emotions are new to me
Teaching how to communicate with others
Finally, letting people in, to understand
To know the person I am
Along the path of life, my life 
People come and people go
That was always expected
Always being left behind or forgotten
As writing became my newfound strength
Opening many locked doors, into new worlds
Letting the masked, fall to the floor
Revealing the face hidden, all these years
Pain, hurt made me stronger
The suffering and pain, couldn’t beat me
People that stayed, through thick and thin
Who are true, helped to rediscover
The person that was lost, now found 
Truly grateful, with my friends
I promise you something now
The show has just begun
Before my death arrives, not one stone
Shall be left unturned, all across the world
My voice will be heard, it will be loud
Time for a revolution,
Not liking how the world became,
Not liking what’s happening,
It’s time for a change,
Humanity is falling,
It’s time to rise once more,
Humanity will rise once more,
If these eyes, doesn’t see tomorrow
Than life was a waste, many uncompleted
Left, still to do, to acheieve and accomplished
Starting now, this moment, my time
For change to finally come

Tan Nguyen

After everything

After everything

Beyond the realms of reality
Darkness and light, are at peace
Trials from the world, all the challenges
Has been completed, pending results
Stars from heaven, shining down
Sparkling, blinking like decorations
Hanging from Christmas trees
Communicating amongst each other
Causing the heavens to dance in celebrations
With dances seen high above, joyous of feelings
Lights of beautiful flows from the moon
Bouncing off the oceans surface
Reflecting as if glittering, diamonds it seems
After everything has been done
All the dreams fulfilled, goals reached
Heart fills with love, happiness within
Suffering shall never return
Purpose of life, accomplished
Mission success, graduation time
Another dimensions shall being waiting
Another journey, another adventure 
Begins

Tan Nguyen

Depression

Depression

Spiralling down into darkness
Uncaring not in the least, hoping the fall
Shall damage the soul
Killing the body, leaving this world
Falling, down, down, never ending
Free falling, unstoppable 
One way ticket, brought with the soul
Bottomless pit, complete darkness
Senses, emotions, feelings, left durinğ flight
Crashing down, finally reaching bottom
Disappointed, broken limbs, damaged souls
Still within this world, in incredible pain
Blindly reaching out, getting a sense of surroundings
Touch and feel, in the gloomy despair
Fading, fading from existent
Disappearing, from life above
forgotten, those that matters
Nothing matters, not anymore 
Never was never will, never shall be
Useless emptiness, taking up space
Using darkness as a blanket, hiding 
Hidden within, lost inwards of self
Trapped in prison, minds possessing the keys
Chained to the walls, tightly as circulations
Are cut off, denied to flow 
Wishes of death, being granted
Life fades, blinking with death
In darkness, right now, right here
Decisions are needed, to be continued this path
To allow death, permission
Thinking back, thanking my lucky stars
That I was able to survive that period in my life
Let it stay in the past
Where it belongs

Tan Nguyen

Above and beyond

Above and beyond

Star light, star bright
Happiness tonight, happiness in sight
Watching the heaven, awesome display
Time is seven, when I came to play
Negativity is fading, positivity advancing
Learning and reading, also some dancing
Finally discovering, after time in searching
Now just recovering, injured from marching
Stars are writing, keeping history
Those in waiting, expecting a story
Shall forever,  be expecting
I shall say never, but always respecting
Happy with newfound ability, gained hidden talent
Fantasy of immortality, no longer repellent
Soaring high above, breaking limitations
Feeling the love, after years of expectations
Finding the purpose, dreams far beyond

Tan Nguyen

Deceptions and illusions

Deceptions and illusons

Dreaming the world away
Reality makes no sense, anymore
Perhaps the world never made sensed
Hidden from sight, the truth of reality
Rules and laws, which no one follows
Unless the benefits are towards  them
As the sun and stars from heaven
Shining down, revealing the shadows
Hidden in the darkness, with plans of negativity
Deceptions and illusions are many
Disguised as angels, while underneath are demons 
Trickery in twisted games, satisfying their urges
Plenty of illusions, confused what’s real
Doing something positive, searching within
Finding the truth, which has now became rare
Life, as beautiful as anything in the world
Can also be the most ugliest thing in the world
Deception and illusions, serves a purpose
Distorting reality, until the time comes
When your ready
To accept the truth

Tan Nguyen